We Cannot Escape Ourselves

   date: 2013-08-13 time: 14:56:46

I sometimes imagine that we all exist in two. If not, how then to explain those moments when we get angry with ourselves, blaming ourselves for all the things we have done and regretted? Who is the target of our hostility? Who receives all of it? For that matter, who is the aggressor? When the fight is happening in our heads, it can feel like a mirror broken in two taking up our whole body.

The truth is that there is no escape from this dynamic. We are usually the hardest on those who are closest to us, and how much closer can you get than living inside of you? This means that we usually punish and torture ourselves harder than we do other people, made worse by the fact that we know ourselves all too well.

We are stuck in our own bodies until death comes for us, and even then, even if we have incorporeal selves, we might still be trapped. Who knows? We are stuck with the same set of arms and legs, the same beating heart, the same minds and experiences and pasts.

We might as well learn to stop fighting ourselves, and if we can, to love us too.

By love, what I mean is to accept ourselves as bumbling, messed up beings capable of much evil and good against us and against others, but this fact does not make us intrinsically bad or hopeless, nor does it make us innately good. What I’d like to believe is that it shows us the potential we have of being in a better place and state than where we presently are.

Sometimes, it seems so easy to fall into the same patterns of anxiety and sadness, to let ourselves come back over and over to the darkness because that is what we’re used to.

Comforting and safe, even. I should know. I have found myself saying that I do not know who I will be if I’m not depressed or anxious, and until now, it’s a continuous decision not to succumb to that way of thinking. It’s hard to tell where to draw the line, let alone be sufficiently strong to follow through.

The trick here, though, is to keep in mind that the goal for loving and accepting ourselves is not happiness. What is that anyway? The goal is to be able to experience peace from time to time, to be able to look at ourselves and be pleasantly surprised to know that we are content with what we have right now. Let us not expect permanence, but instead, practice gratefulness for the moments when there is more light than gray in our lives.

Those days will come, but it will not be easy. It will be a real fucker of a process, day by day, hour by hour, and we will fail so many times we’d wonder if it’s even doable at all. We will hate ourselves and want to be someone else, we will feel tempted to jump out of our own skins and move into another body which hopefully isn’t scarred the way ours already are. We’ll want to take the easy way out, to just run and run and run away from who we are until it can’t catch up with us anymore.

Sometimes we’ll need the pills to fill up what feels empty. Sometimes we’ll need the alcohol and the cigarettes and the bad friends, the one-night stands that make our skin crawl in the morning, the bad decisions and relationships and regrets. We’ll need the 3am cry fests and empty sobs that feel like they’ll break ribs, the numbness, the confusion and the feeling that we are adrift and alone without a home.

It’s okay.

The most important thing is that we try, anyway.

I think that out of all the people that surround us, out of everyone we claim we love, the one person who deserves all the chances from us is ourselves. We deserve our own forgiveness. We deserve infinite kindness from the only self we will ever have.

Since we cannot escape ourselves, how about we become our biggest fans instead?

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26.05.13 //2

   date: 2013-05-26 time: 16:41:49
Don't worry about your body.
It isn't as small as it once was,
But honestly, the world needs
more of you.
You look in the mirror
like you've done something
But you look perfect.
Anyone who says otherwise is
telling a lie
to make you feel weak.
And you know better.
You've survived every single
for as long as you've been alive.
You could spit fire if you

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May. 22, 2013

   date: 2013-05-22 time: 21:11:47

Know yourself. Watch for the things that most heavily lift or sink your heart. These are the markers of who you are. Look at your qualities objectively, especially when they are less than appealing, these are just as important as the great things about you are. Don’t work on accepting the person you project to other people.

Be ready to be vulnerable and imperfect. You don’t have to like your imperfections, but you do have to be able to sit with them, acknowledge them and embrace that they are present in you for one reason or another. Dig and find the root of what cultivated them. Work on undoing what needs to be undone; work on being better.

This self-acceptance business is not an excuse to be a terrible person. If being yourself means this, you will deal with the consequences of your actions in due time. Don’t think that because you are “being yourself” you are excused from anything that is derogatory toward or detrimental to someone else.

Know that you are or will be loved for the things you find unlovable. Some things I’ve loved most about people are the things they’ve later said to be most self-conscious of. The ways in which you don’t fit into the mold of a socially-generated-perfect-human are the ways in which you are unique and they are the things about you that the right people will be most enamored by.

Baby steps. Don’t expect anything immediately and be good to yourself for trying. Overhauling your entire life in a day will not end well, go ahead and try if you don’t believe me.

Understand that a large element of this is choice. While I don’t believe you can change who you innately are, I do believe that you can choose to take life from the perspective of your best self. Choose to do that. Choose to keep going even when challenges arise. Choose to forgive yourself for your moments of indiscretion.

Realize you are not the summation of your past. It is part of you, it is your story, and it has helped craft you, but it is not who you innately are. You can always choose differently. You are a beautiful person for admitting that you are only human and you’ve done wrong, but you’re working on it.

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Nobody else can heal you

   date: 2013-05-18 time: 20:20:39

I’m not saying you have to have it all seamlessly together to be loved. I actually think that real love grows when someone finds unspeakable beauty in the place you’ve been cut open. But the thing is, you can’t expect someone else to heal those wounds. They can love you and that love can facilitate healing, but you are the only person who can heal yourself. Nobody else will ever be able to alleviate your burdens. It may seem like it for a little while, but the brokenness of your foundation will always show eventually.

Yes, love is transformative and enlightening and humbling and probably the most real thing we can experience. It is responsible for a whole slew of miraculousness, but romantic love will not solve your problems. The high you get from the newness of someone will eventually subside, as it always does, and you’ll be left even more raw than you were before, facing the brutal reality that the thing you were waiting for to fix everything didn’t.

It’s for this reason that I believe we often see people undergoing self-transformations after breakups. Of course there are other reasons for these behaviors, but I do think that in many cases, it has to do with people realizing that nobody else is responsible for resolving their own issues.

I know many couples who have found one another and rely on each other to function. They are the epitome of unhealthy, and what they all have in common is that they all found their partners while they were honestly broken people.

People and love can be the most integral part of the healing process. But you can’t just wait for somebody else to do the work. You have to get your ass on the floor, realize that you’re imperfect and you feel unworthy and you’ve made mistakes and you’re afraid of this and that and the other thing. You have to come to terms with these things that are inside you. You don’t have to like them. You just have to be able to sit with them. You have to be okay enough to still be standing on your own if and when somebody leaves you there.

The happily ever after will not save you, and the love of your life will not heal you. They will only love you, and while that may facilitate great healing, it can also be the source of your demise if things don’t work out until the day you die of old age. If your peace and acceptance is contingent on someone else, and if your hope is external, you do not really have any of those things. Don’t fool yourself into thinking you do, it will be a price that you alone will have to pay.

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about relationships

   date: 2013-05-12 time: 09:36:31

You’re single because you’re single. It’s not because you texted too much or too little or waited 33 minutes to respond because he took 23. It’s not because you met up with your ex that night at 5 a.m. that no one knows about, or because you kissed another boy after a date with a loser.
You’re not single because you spit food on that date or tripped coming out the the movie theatre. You’re not single because you hurt your first boyfriend really badly when you were 15 or because you have yet, to this day, to apologize. It’s not because you were secretly jealous when your friend got a boyfriend or that a guy you dated for two months now has a really cute girlfriend and looks really happy. And you’re happy for him. But still ill that he found someone before you.
You’re not single because you slept with your ex boyfriend. You’re not single because half the world found out when you didn’t even want to remember it yourself. You’re not single because you think the guy your friend wants to hook you up with is ugly or not tall enough. It’s not because you’re not willing to put up with someone who doesn’t brush their teeth on a regular basis.
You’re not single because your standards are too high. Good for you for having standards. It’s not because you didn’t like that really, really good guy who wanted to take you on a date and you just weren’t feeling it. And it’s not because you like to wear pajama pants as soon as you get home and wash all the makeup off your face. You’re not single because you didn’t learn enough from the past or would rather chill on a Friday night with your blanket and a cold beer than shower, get ready, and go out. You’re not single because something is wrong with you.
You are single because you are single. It’s really as simple as that. You haven’t made the connection with another heart yet. You can get dolled up, dress cute, cut your hair, dye your hair, tweeze your eyebrows, put on lipstick and you may still. be. single. You can go out to a bar hoping to meet the love of your life and not find a damn one in the place attractive. And it’s going to remain that way until it’s time for you to find one. Stop hoping for it. Start living the life that you do have instead of wishing for things that you don’t have. There will come a time you’ll meet a boy and you’ll have to give up some of this single freedom you currently have. Start being more thankful. Start doing that now.

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about self esteem

   date: 2013-05-10 time: 15:46:01
To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don't need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself. When you are born a lotus flower, be a beautiful lotus flower, don't try to be a magnolia flower. If you crave acceptance and recognition and try to change yourself to fit what other people want you to be, you will suffer all your life. True happiness and true power lie in understanding yourself, accepting yourself, having confidence in yourself.

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“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

   date: 2013-04-25 time: 21:29:56
Surround yourself with the best of who you want to be, and none other. Stick to people with similar morals, values, perspectives on the world.
There have been too many who now find themselves stumbling down paths of destruction, just from one bad person in their life.
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“You don't have to be skinny, but just eating right and doing 15 minutes of a walk is enough to keep your body healthy for as long as you live.”

   date: 2013-04-24 time: 19:13:46
sometimes you just need to wear huge sweatpants and surround yourself with pillows and blankets and lay on your floor and eat a bowl of ice cream and watch finding nemo. it restores you and makes you feel good. i fully believe that sometimes, being unhealthy is the healthiest thing you can do for yourself.

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“The greatest barrier to success is the fear of failure.”

   date: 2013-04-24 time: 17:03:29
the world is heavy
but your bones
(just a cubic inch)
can hold 19.000 lbs
ounce for ounce
they are stronger than steel
atom for atom
you are more precious than
and stars have died
so that you may live
you need to remember these things
when you say that you are weak
and worthless
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- Lucy Howard-Taylor, Biting Anorexia

   date: 2013-04-19 time: 19:09:00
"If you want to be anorexic, this is what you have to be prepared for: the stomach pain, the heart flutters, the blackness, the uncomfortable nights because every way you turn your bones stick into the bed, the constant accusing and pathetically pitiful stares, the crying, the friends who abandon you, your school marks which plummet, a brain that does nothing but think food, food, food, being kept awake every night planning what you'll eat the next day and then not going to sleep because you are so hungry, the nightmares about gorging yourself on food from which you wake up crying, the handfuls of hair that come out and cover everything, the blue and lumpy fingernails, the unhealable bruises, the goose bumps, the cold, the absolute obsession with cooking and feeding other people, the self-hate, the loneliness, clothes that will never fit no matter what size, the constipation, the awful depression when you've finished your tiny breakfast and realized there are four hours to go until lunch... You will stop talking, listening to music, seeing your friends, patting your dog, planning your life, dreaming, doing work, feeling happy, going on the Internet, reading, watching TV (except for the cooking channel)... you will stop living. You will find no pleasure in anything. You will be moody. You will never laugh and you will rarely smile, except with pride, perhaps, as the scales drop lower. Then will come the continuous doctors' appointments and the ultimatum: put on weight or drop out of school and be an invalid for the rest of your life before you eventually die of starvation and/or heart failure. It will be torturous. The antidepressants will feel like they are killing you. You will lie in bed for days unable to move. You will not care about anything but holding on to the anorexia. You would prefer to die. You will try to die. Then the refeeding (horrible, horrible word) will begin. You will panic whenever you have food in your mouth. The anorexia will shriek at you to get it out, to spit it down the drain, scrape it from your teeth and walk around the block for good measure. You will hate yourself with such a passion that you will want to rip the fat off, shred it and tear it, cause yourself as much pain as possible. Then you will realize that you cannot kill yourself now because you wouldn't be thin enough in the coffin. People would walk past and murmur, "Oh! Wasn't she fat!". It will fail to register that you are still severely anorexic at this point and will be for some time. Sometimes you will see yourself in the mirror and briefly gasp with horror at the sight of your own bones. And then truth will melt into delusion, and your thighs will spring back and your stomach will bulge over rippled ribs and you will feel horribly normal once more. You will be scared to go outside just in case your utter grossness is spotted by someone else. God forbid they should see those arms or that face. You will feel like a nobody, a worthless nonperson who deserves nothing, has nothing, is nothing. The depression may swallow you in its blackness. You will withdraw from everything. You will spend hour after hour lying motionless on your bed, suffocating under a black cloud, hating yourself with a sheer intensity incomprehensible to those on the outside, willing yourself to get up and burn off that sordid food you were forced to eat. But you will be too tired. You will not be able to physically raise your head... Months will melt away into nothing."
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“The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”

   date: 2013-04-09 time: 19:38:00
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Tired of people

   date: 2013-03-19 time: 21:59:00
The first step towards confidence is not being afraid to be ugly.
   Once you get over the fear of being unattractive and stop equating beauty with other good things in life (friends, love, happiness) it's a lot easier to love yourself unconditionally.
   Your job is not to sit around and be pretty and easy on everyone else's eyes.
   Your job is to do whatever the fuck you want and look however the fuck you want while doing it.
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Stop hating your body

   date: 2013-03-17 time: 12:07:00
This is a series of ads from the early 20th century right up to the 1970s.
You might notice what they’re advertising is, instead of the weight loss solutions we’re used to today, they’re actually advertising weight GAIN.
‘It’s hard to believe they once called me skinny!’
‘Skinny girls are NOT glamour girls!’
‘a skinny, scarecrow figure is neither fashionable nor glamourous!’
‘thousands quickly gaining beauty-bringing pounds!’
Notice how less than a hundred years ago, these ads were meant to shame thin bodies the way weight loss ads shame fat bodies today? Notice that how as time goes by, the ‘ideal’ body shape changes from era to era? Notice how in these ads as well as those seen today, they’re meant to make people feel bad about the way they look?
These ads are just as bad as the ones that run today. They’re meant to shame you and make you feel inadequate for one sole reason: so you go out and spend money on their products. It’s not about your self esteem, your health, or your happiness. It’s about selling the product. It’s about making the money.  
Your body is NOT wrong. You don’t need pills, diets, or supplements to make you happy, attractive, or ‘right’. All bodies are good bodies. It doesn’t matter if you’re skinny, fat, tall, short, disabled, scarred, anything at all.
Do not let the media dictate what you think you should be. The media is fickle. It does not care about you. Don’t let yourself care about what it says.
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10 Ways To Become Confident

   date: 2013-03-16 time: 15:44:00
  1. Smile. Not only will it brighten your day, but it will make others around you smile, too.
  2. At the end of each day write down something you think you did well. E.g I stood up for a girl who was being bullied in class today.
  3. Listen to songs that make you happy, not ones that make you want to shut yourself off from the world and cry all by yourself in your room.
  4. Believe that you're in a confidence bubble. Kind of like, you're wearing an invisibility coat.
  5. Love what you wear. When you look good, it changes the way you feel. This will make you confident with presentencing yourself to society.
  6. Walk with purpose. Walk like you have got somewhere to be.
  7. Make eye contact with the person you're talking to or are talking.
  8. Next time you're at a party meet someone new. The girl by herself in the corner looks like a good person to start with...
  9. Clear out the clutter in your life. A messy room equals a messy mind.
  10. Stop comparing yourself to others. Focusing on your positive qualities, rather than comparing yourself to others, is a great way too boost self-confidence.
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How To Fall In Love With Yourself

   date: 2013-02-26 time: 19:40:00
Stand naked in front of a mirror for a long time, under unflattering light if possible. Trace the rises and falls of the little ripples on your skin — the scars, the dimples, the cellulite — and think about how much you try to hide these things in your day-to-day. Wonder why you hate them so much, and if this hate stems from somewhere within yourself, or as a result of being told all your life that it’s wrong to have physical flaws. Wonder what you would think of your body if you never looked at a magazine, if you never thought about celebrities and models, if you never had to wonder where someone would rate you on a scale of 10. Look at yourself until the initial recoil softens, and you can consider your features in a more forgiving frame of mind.
Listen to the music which makes you want to both sob and dance with uninhibited joy, and allow yourself to repeat any song you want as many times as your heart desires. Think of the person you are when you have your favorite song in your headphones and are walking down a street you feel you own completely, swaying your hips and smiling for no good reason — remember how many things you love about yourself during those moments, how much you are willing to forgive in yourself, how confident you are for no good reason. Try to think of confidence as a gift you give yourself when you need it, instead of something you have to siphon from every unreliable source in your life. Dance because the music makes you remember how much you love yourself, not because it allows you to forget the fact that you don’t.
Write a list of all the things you like about yourself, even if you think it’s a self-indulgent and narcissistic activity. Start as early as you like in your life — put down that time you won a trophy playing little league soccer when you were eight and then got an extra-large shake at the DQ on the way home, and don’t feel silly for remembering it. Try to understand how many sources in your life happiness can come from, how many things you could be proud of if you chose to. Ask yourself why you so tightly limit the things you take pride in, why you set your own hurdles for happiness and fulfillment so much higher than you do with anyone else in your life. Let your list go on for pages and pages if you want it to.
Touch and care for yourself with the attention and the patience that you would with someone you loved more than life itself. Rub lotion in small circles on your elbows and hands when it is cold and your skin is dry and cracked. Make soup for yourself when your nose is running and curl up, with your favorite movie, in a pile of expertly-stacked pillows. Light a few candles and let their glow flicker against your body. Admire how gentle they are, how delicately their warmth touches you — wonder why you don’t let yourself do the same. Soak your feet in warm water at the end of a long day, until they have forgiven you for walking on them for so long without so much as a “thank you.” Listen to your body when it aches to be touched, and don’t be afraid to give it every orgasm that you may have been too ashamed to ask for in someone else’s bed.
Be patient with yourself, and don’t worry if a switch doesn’t flip in you which abruptly takes you from “crippling self-doubt” to “uncompromising self-love.” Allow yourself all the trepidation and clumsy, uneven infatuation that you would with a promising stranger. Try only to be kinder, to be softer, and to remember all of the things within you which are worth loving. Listen to the voice in the back of your head which tells you, as much out of sadness as anger, “You are ugly. You are stupid. You are boring.” Give it the fleeting moment of attention it so craves, and then remind it, “Even if that were true, I’d still be worth loving.”
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10 things you must tell yourself today

   date: 2013-02-12 time: 16:39:00
I am fighting hard for the things I want most
◊ The longer you have to wait for something the more you will appreciate it when it finally arrives.
◊ Most great things don't come easy, but they are worth waiting for and fighting for.
I am taking action now
◊ Many great things can be done in a day if you don't always make that day tomorrow.
I am focusing on the next positive step
◊ The future holds nothing but endless potential.
◊ There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.
I am proud to wear my truth
◊ How you see yourself means everything.
◊ To be beautiful means to live confidently in your own skin.
I have a lot to smile about
◊ Happiness is not a result of getting something you don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what you do have.
I am making the best of it
◊ Everything you go through grows you.
◊ Amazing things can and do happen when you least expect them.
I am letting go of yesterday's stress
◊ Leave behind the stress, the drama and the worries. Lay this day to rest.
◊ Tomorrow is about hope, new possibilites, and the opportunity to make a better day.
There is enough time today to do something I love
◊ You will find happiness in doing the thing you love to do.
I am priceless in someone's eyes
◊ Focus on those who love and accept you for who you are, and shower them with the love and kindness they deserve. Cherish the people who saw you when you were invisible to everyone else.
It's not too late
◊ No matter who you are, no matter what you did, no matter where you've come from, you can always change and become a better version of yourself.
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Accepting yourself

   date: 2013-02-09 time: 21:23:00
First of all you have to learn not to lie. You have to appreciate whom you are. Look at the mirror and face yourself. Facing yourself in the mirror is something magical, important and interesting at the same time. It feels like you escape your body, and watch how yourself is looking and acting, as you were a third person. While looking at your reflection in the mirror, you have to realize who you are, where you live, how old are you and things that have to do with your life, your personality and the way you act in everyday life. Our beliefs, background, religion, race, gender and sexuality make us who we are. Just by facing your “faults” your mood is going to change and then you have to decide whether you like it or not, and what would you like to change. Maybe, its the way you act with people around you, or the way you live, your job or your friends, your religion or sexuality. By making clear these simple things of your life in your mind, your mood is going to change radically and is going to give you pathways that leads to happiness and acceptance.
Först av allt måste du lära dig att inte ljuga. Du måste uppskatta vem du är. Titta i spegeln och möt dig själv. Att möta sig själv i spegeln är något magiskt, viktigt och intressant på samma gång. Det känns som du flyr din kropp, och du ser hur du själv inspekterar och agerar, som om du var i tredje person. Medan du tittar på din spegelbild i spegeln, måste du inse vem du är, var du bor, hur gammal är du och saker som har att göra med ditt liv, din personlighet och hur du agerar i vardagen. Vår tro, bakgrund, religion, ras, kön och sexualitet gör oss till vilka vi är. Bara genom att möta dina "brister" kommer ditt humör att förändras och då måste du bestämma dig för om om du gillar de eller inte, och vad skulle du vilja ändra. Kanske, är det sättet du agerarmed människor runt omkring dig, eller hur du bor, ditt jobb eller dina vänner, din religion eller sexualitet. Genom att göra dessa enkla detaljer i ditt liv glasklara i ditt sinne, kommer ditt humör att förändras radikalt och ge dig vägar som leder till lycka och acceptans.

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Please don't ignore the pictures this is reverse psychology btw

   date: 2013-02-02 time: 12:33:00
This morning I caught myself saying something that I’ve realized I say a lot: “My legs are too big for these pants.” and I also realized how incredibly untrue that is. These pants were made for one purpose - for bodies to wear. Bodies, on the other hand, were made for running and jumping and dancing and standing and kicking and however else you move in your daily life. It is impossible for your body to be too big for your clothes, your clothes can only be too small for your body, because the clothing is what is supposed to change to accommodate the body. Clothes were made for your body, your body was made for much more important things than clothes.
Imorse kom jag på mig själv med att säga något som jag har insett att jag säger ganska ofta: "Mina ben är för stora för de här byxorna" och jag insåg hur otroligt osant det är. Byxorna gjordes för ett enda syfte - att bäras av kroppar. Kroppar, å andra sidan, gjordes för att springa och hoppa och dansa och stå och sparka och hur du nu än rör dig i ditt vardagliga liv. Det är omöjligt för kroppen att vara för stor för dina kläder, dina kan kläder bara vara för små för din kropp eftersom det är kläderna som är tänkta att ändras för att passa kroppen. Kläder gjordes för din kropp, din kropp skapades för mycket viktigare saker än kläder.

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Beauty has a lot to do with character.

   date: 2013-01-30 time: 22:04:00
Dolls, goodnight to all you lovely, gorgeous, beautiful people. Keep your head up high. Why? Because you deserve it. You are going places. You may not know where yet, but you are. And you’re going to impact others on the way, Maybe even inspire them to join you on your journey or to create a parallel one with you. Who knows? You may even find the people who will stick by your side for the rest of your life.
So do me a favor? Just a small one. Be nice to yourself tonight…instead of saying how big and nasty your thighs are, thank your parents for giving them to you, for allowing them to carry you through life, with the strength and endurance that will last a life time. Put the razor down, your skin doesn’t have to be broken tonight. Paint your nails instead of bringing up your dinner, it wouldn’t taste good anyway. Turn off your phone instead of reading all those nasty messages people sent you today…you know they aren’t true, but every time you read it it gets harder to not believe those words. Log off the computer and close the Instagram app. You don’t need to see cute couples or horses or cute love quotes or fit girls.
Now, go look in the mirror. Look deep into your eyes. Guess what? You’re beautiful. and you’re amazing. Just look at yourself in the mirror, smile and say “I’m fucking beautiful”. Someone, somewhere, wishes they were just like you. Someone, somewhere wishes they knew you. Someone, somewhere loves you.
So please, be nice to yourself tonight. Let this be the start of a beautiful journey to a long, fulfilling, happiness-filled life. The life you were meant to live.
I love you.
Godnatt till alla er underbara, fina, vackra människor. Håll huvudena högt. Varför? För att ni förtjänar det. Ni kommer ta er någonstans i livet. Ni kanske inte vet var ännu, men det kommer ni. Och ni kommer att påverka andra på vägen, kanske inspirera dem att följa med er på eran resa eller skapa en parallell med er. Vem vet? Ni kanske även hittar människorna som kommer att hålla sig vid er sida för resten av era liv.
Så gör mig en tjänst? Bara en liten en. Var snäll mot er själva ikväll ... istället för att säga hur stora och äckliga era lår är, tacka era föräldrar för att de "gav" dem till er. De låter er bäras genom livet, med styrka och uthållighet som varar tills ni dör. Lägg ner rakbladet, eran hud behöver inte förstöras ikväll. Måla era naglar i stället för att tvinga upp er middag, det smakar inte bra ändå. Stäng av telefonen i stället för att läsa alla hemska meddelanden folk skickade idag... ni vet att de inte är sanna, men varje gång ni läser de blir det svårare att inte tro på orden. Logga ut från datorn och stäng ner Instagram appen. Ni behöver inte se söta par eller hästar eller fina kärlekscitat eller vältränade tjejer.
Gå nu och titta er själva i spegeln. Titta djupt in i era ögon. Gissa vad? Ni är vackra. Och ni är fantastiska. Titta bara på er själva i spegeln, le och säg "jag är så jäkla vacker". Någon, någonstans vill vara precis som er. Någon, någonstans önskar att de kände er. Någon, någonstans älskar er.
Så snälla, vara snälla mot er själva ikväll. Låt detta vara början på en vacker resa till ett långt, härligt, lyckligt liv. Det liv ni var ämnade att leva.
Jag älskar er.

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In this weight loss process..

   date: 2012-12-29 time: 11:25:00
The mental hurdles are the hardest to overcome. Your body is capable of so many great things but sometimes our minds prevent us from taking that extra step. I’m not only referring to exercise but also overcoming certain food addictions and our own insecurities. Overall I’ve learned that weight loss is a continual mental struggle, but in the end it is a fight in which I will ultimately come out victorious. 

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