i hope all of my future romantic partners can respect that sometimes i might not wanna even think about touching them because it grosses me out too much and not feel hurt by it. i don't think they will ‘cause it is… kind of hurtful, soo… maybe i can tell them it’s not you it is me and they’ll be chill. or maybe they’ll be grossed out too and we can be disgusted and in love together. these are my goals