i wish sex didnt gross me out as much as it does. i wish people could talk about their very normal healthy sexual behavior/desires without grossing me out. i wish i could interact with someone sexually without getting grossed out by myself/them/everything. the couple of times i’ve tried i've either felt really gross-bad in the moment and started detaching myself from the entire situation or felt fine and happy until later on when i thought about it and felt really gross-bad. i wish sexuality wasn't a thing. i wish we were all small sexless desireless plants. ah, yes