I want to say that I don't care

that we aren't friends anymore

but I really, really do.

 

I'm sorry

I pushed you away

and I'm sorry I never got around to apologizing

because I don't think it's my fault

and neither was it yours.

 

We grew apart

and

you stopped trying

and so I did too.

 

And all those times

I said I was just tired

it was not a lack of sleep

but rather a lack of hope

that you took with you

when you left.

 

I want to say I don't miss you anymore

but I think part of me always will.

 

And I keep telling myself it's okay that I lost you

and that I will meet a million different people in my life time

its just deep down I know that

I won't ever meet anyone like you.