hello again. i'm doing nothing but chillin' atm which i absolutely shouldn't do bc i have a math exam tomorrow omg??? i need to get to that but idk man i probably won't. i seriously have no interest in school anymore which is extremely annoying bc when i was a kid i loved school and i felt so cool when i got homework and it was like the best thing in the world omg i was insane??? i just wish it could still be like that bc let's be honest that would be awesome. at least it's only a couple of days left and then i have a holiday and some time to rest and hopefully find some motivation for schoolwork which i highly doubt but i'm gonna keep my hopes up bc you know anything is possible if you just believe??? btw i love how carefree i can be on this blog bc like in school and everywhere else i've always been like a freak when it comes to spelling and capital letters and punctuation and all that crap but here none of those things exists and it feels good man. it's just so flowing and comfortable to read don't you agree???

other than that i've been terribly bad with my exercising for a couple of days but thankfully my motivation is back and i think all that was needed was a couple of days off. i have a concern though. i have no appetite anymore??? like when i wake up breakfast is the last thing i want and as soon as i eat something i feel sick??? can anyone pls tell me what's going on bc like i've always loved food but now i'm only feeling sick when i eat and nothing looks or tastes or feels appealing anymore and it scares me ugh. maybe i need to have more variation in my food or something idk. let's just hope it turns back to normal asap.

wow now i feel like my thoughts are kind of just spilling out of my brain and flowing down in my fingers so i guess i'll just keep on writing then??? this has nothing to do with anything but omg i couldn't fall asleep last night I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO FALL ASLEEP IT'S THE WORST.

BTW AND THIS IS ALSO OUT OF NOWHERE my life has changed so incredibly much in just like 6 months omg??? like if i think back 6 months ago i had a boyfriend (well we broke up like around 6 months ago but whatever) i was so unhealthy omg and like everything was different and now when i look at where i stand and who i am today i'm feeling nothing but pride it's such an amazing feeling omfg. i'm so proud for stepping out of my comfort zone and i mean look at how far i've come i'm so proud i don't even care if i sound selfish now but i'm awesome.

well this post was a random one with a lot of different things involved and i wanna say sorry to everyone who reads this bless your soul ily ok.