this is honestly a recurring issue for me. i know it's so incredibly stupid but i honestly like have a problem. it's not some stupid crush on a member of a boy band. harry girls fall in love with harry. i don't know how it is for other girls but with harry you can't just be like "oh he's cute" and leave it at that. it's like you fall in love with him. every physical aspect of him. his accent. the way he says "us". how caring he is. his inability to make jokes. even the way his feet are always pigeon toed. it's quite ridiculous really because how do i know he's like that in real life? it just sucks.

 

first i will never meet them. ever. and even if i did i'm nothing remarkable. to them i'm just another girl who's obsessed with them. i'm just going to be another face among a sea of screaming girls. i'm not funny or witty or even that pretty. nothing about me would catch their eye. it's not even that i want harry to fall in love with me because i know that will never happen. i just want to be friends with them.

like look at all the crazy shit they do. i just want to have as much fun as they do and if i were able to spend even an hour with them i think my life would be complete. i'm ranting. i'm sorry if anyone's actually reading this.

 

it's just one huge depressing mess when i realize that they mean so much to me and i'll never mean a damn thing to them. i'm 15 and spend hours staring at pictures of harry. it's stupid and i don't even understand it anymore. i honestly just don't get it. i don't know. it just sucks so fucking badly.