life hack: eat well. drink lots of water. cut toxic people out of your life. realize you don't know everything. realize you don't have to give your input to every subject. realize that listening is often more important than speaking. try to exercise regularly. try to challenge yourself. don't romanticize other people. don't blame yourself for other peoples' faults. think critically about yourself. surround yourself with people who listen to you. listen to others. be a friend to get a friend. realize the you in your head is a figment of your imagination. read lots of things. erase your self image and replace it with something mutable and always changing. be kind to animals. recognize you're a very small creature made of stardust situated in a spatio-temporal fold you have no means of seeing beyond and that the only things that will last after your death are the good things you manage to do for others and the love you share. don't feel bad about enjoying silly things, don't let other people cow you into silence. fight for what you believe in. remember that you are perfect. remember that your existence is complex and cannot be reduced to trite aphorisms or a list of subjective characteristics. remember that none of this advice may apply to you. remember your family. remember where you come from. arm yourself for the future. arm yourself for the world. take care of yourself. you are never alone.

don't straighten the back of your hair. you won't be able to see it. you dress for you, not for them. don't straighten any part of yourself that you prefer curvy or unkempt.

 

you are not a piece of clothing to be folded into a suitcase, or an envelope to be stuffed in a mailbox, or a book that needs to fit on a shelf.

 

pack your bags. send letters to those you love to let them know how you feel. send letters to those you hate to let them know how they've wronged you and how you've forgiven them. read books. build shelves. stop worrying. stop thinking.

 

you do not have to lug yourself around. the more there is of you, the more strength there is to carry you. it all cancels out. your net weight is zero.

 

you are not a package - it does not cost more to ship you when you are bigger. you are a human being. ship yourself wherever you want to go.

 

stop making excuses. "i'm fat" is the dumbest reason to avoid living.

 

life is not a gym class. it does not exist to humiliate you. it is not about you, but it is for you. stop forging notes to get out of it. stop skipping days. don't fool yourself. live. get on with things.

And today I realized

that I am the biggest hypocrite

of them all.

 

I tell everyone to keep holding on

that there is light at the end.

That everything gets better as long

as you continue to wait.

 

I always tell people to have hope.

That they need to keep trying because

it is too early to give up,

that they have so much to live for.

 

Then there is me,

and I am barely holding on.

 

A.K.

you are not a pear, you are not an hourglass, you are not an apple; you are a human being, with bumps and crevices and scars. you are a million shapes rolled into one. you are a universe within yourself. you are a human being, and you are magnificent.

älskar min blogg så sanslöst mycket ni förstår inte

 

med risk för att låta självgod <3

ten things to appreciate

 

saknar att skriva och vill bara dela med mig av precis ALLT som händer i mitt liv just nu men något sätter stopp för orden och jag får inte ut något förståeligt, och det är så sorligt

 

men jag mår bra. väldigt bra. mer än väldigt bra. allt är alldeles underbart för tillfället.

 

ps. påminnelse om att ni alla är fina varelser. var stolt över dig själv. 

idag har jag

• vaknat sent men samtidigt alldeles för tidigt med tanke på min sömnbrist som råder i veckorna
• sett på alldeles för många avsnitt av den världsbästa serien supernatural som jag håller kärt <3
• ätit osttortillas
• ätit en god frukost bestående av fil blåbär granola samt tärnad gurka
• druckit litervis med vatten och steviasaft
• pluggat för lite spanska
• skrivit i kalendern som är proppfull av viktiga händelser
• läst favvobloggarna
• duschat bort helgens bravader
• insett hur hemsk denna värld är
• funderat på att städa men sedan glömt av tanken
• legat i sängen
• bakat chokladbollar och ätit chokladbollar
• konverserat med fina vänner och andra
• saknat farmor och farfar
• tänkt. för mycket.

obs. detta inlägg är endast en påminnelse för mig själv ps. du kan sluta läsa här ds.

 

spanska v.38

la salud - hälsa

desayunar - äta frukost

el desayuno - frukost

dar - ge

el lugar - plats

soler - bruka

el zumo - juice

el cruasán - croissant, giffel

la magdalena - muffins

han puesto - de satte fram

el frijol - böna

el jugo - juice

la naranja - apelsin

el gallo pinto - maträtt med bönor och ris

el huevo - ägg

frito - stekt, friterad

la tostada - rostat bröd

la selva - djungel

el pescado - fisk

la yuca frita - friterad maniok

el patacón - friterad matbanan i tillplattade skivor

la tortilla de maiz - majspannkaka

ha hecho - hon har gjort

la arepa - majsbröd, majspannkaka

mediterráneo - medelhavs-

el beneficio - nytta, fördel

significar - betyda

concretamente - i själva verket

principal - huvudsaklig

la característica - egenskap

la verdura - grönsak

el arroz - ris

los cereales - flingor

las legumbres - baljväxter; grönsaker

usar - använda

el aceite de oliva - olivolja

extra virgen - extra jungfruolja

consumir - konsumera

elegir - välja

los frutos secos - nötter, frön

la miel - honung

la aceituna - oliv

evitar - undvika

el exceso - överdrift, överutnyttjande

la sal - salt

sano - hälsosam

el aumento - ökning

el sobrepeso - övervikt

el papel - roll

jugar un papel - spela en roll

comer fuera de casa - äta ute

luchar contra - bekämpa

el dueño - ägare

 

i höst vill jag:

- baka äppelpaj och äta tillsammans med vaniljsås

- titta på tv

- försöka ge mig på att sticka strumpor

- ta många långa promenader

- ha myskväll med vänner

- måla med akryl till fin musik

- kramas

- skriva massa dikter och annat vid tillfällen då regnet öser ner

- våga gå klädd i kjol och strumpbyxor samt stickad tröja

- läsa megamycket bra böcker

- laga mat med höstens råvaror

- plocka kastanjer med lillebror 

- träffa farmor och farfar

- dekorera mitt rum med ljusslingor och tända stearinljus

- gå på bio

- bada skumbad efter långa skoldagar

- ha golvpicknick med någon fin vän

- plocka svamp

- fika på stan en torsdagskväll

- dricka kopiösa mängder te ur fint porslin

listen to me

you are not selfish for wanting to die

i miss when you would squint your eyes

to catch flakes of light caught in your lashes

but i still feel you

everywhere i go

you're living in my fingertips and i'm leaving traces of you

for everyone to see

that you are still here

i want you to take your medication

when you're supposed to take it

take the proper amount

cry if you need to,

but realize it is okay to need help sometimes

i want you to put your shoes on today

and step outside

skip school if you need to

just talk to the flowers and trees and bugs

don't try for your mother or your sister or me,

do it for yourself

because you will always be worth trying

you will always be worth life

whether it trembles on through three am phone calls

or brushes itself through your hair when you dance in your underwear

you are not selfish for wanting to die

you are human and you are here and i feel it

bring me to another world

preferably somewhere filled

with your lovely thoughts